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Friday, June 9th, 2006
8:01 pm	I am selling my soul... ...well, not quite but i am selling all of my crap. Current Mood: cheerful (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 6th, 2006
10:09 pm	666 I can't belive that today is slipping away without incident. I should be out celebrating the sun and the date...or really drinking on any old excuse! I wonder is it possible to walk to the zoo from here? I might find out tomorrow. Current Mood: optimistic Current Music: Funeral for a Friend - Hours (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 31st, 2006
5:48 pm	I am really this bored! Advanced Big 45 Personality Test Results Gregariousness ||||||||||||||||||||| 70% Sociability |||||||||||||||||| 58% Assertiveness ||||||||||||||||||||| 70% Poise |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78% Leadership |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 86% Provocativeness |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 86% Self-Disclosure |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 90% Talkativeness |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 90% Group Attachment ||||||||||||||||||||| 70% Extroversion |||||||||||||||||||||||| 77% Understanding ||||||||||||||| 42% Warmth ||||||||||||||| 50% Morality ||||||||| 30% Pleasantness |||||||||||| 38% Empathy ||||||||||||||| 50% Cooperation ||||||||| 26% Sympathy |||||||||||| 34% Tenderness ||||||||||||||||||||| 66% Nurturance |||||||||||||||||| 54% Accommodation ||||||||||||||| 43% Conscientiousness |||||||||||| 34% Efficiency |||||||||||| 34% Dutifulness ||||||||||||||| 46% Purposefulness ||||||||| 30% Organization |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78% Cautiousness |||||| 14% Rationality |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 86% Perfectionism |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 82% Planning ||||||||| 30% Orderliness ||||||||||||||| 48% Stability ||||||||| 22% Happiness ||||||||||||||||||||| 62% Calmness |||||||||||| 34% Moderation |||||||||||| 34% Toughness ||||||||||||||| 46% Impulse Control |||||| 18% Imperturbability ||| 10% Cool-headedness ||||||||| 22% Tranquility |||||||||||| 38% Emotional Stability |||||||||||| 31% Intellect |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 82% Ingenuity |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 86% Reflection |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78% Competence |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74% Quickness |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 86% Introspection |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 86% Creativity |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 90% Imagination |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 86% Depth |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 86% Openmindedness |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 83% Take Free Advanced Big 45 Personality Test personality tests by similarminds.com Current Mood: bored (Comment on this)
Friday, February 17th, 2006
6:53 pm	I am not a nerd! http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=7521044027821122670 Current Mood: crushed (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, February 13th, 2006
10:29 pm	Pop-Psychology So lectures this morning were all about conditioning...with special reference to fetishes and drug abuse. I am sure you are all familiar with the experiment in which a group of male students were conditioned to be aroused by boots (Rachman, 1966) but i will explain it here for those of you who are not familiar. Basically a load of blokes were shown some porn, then some boots, then some porn...and this was repeated. Over time the subjects come to be aroused by boots. The suggestion, in the lecture, was that this is the reason for some fetishes. And that, for example, is why we have favourite positions or situations. Anyway, i don’t really know were i am going with this point other than it is quite interesting (and funny when you learn that many of the male students resisted being unconditioned...boots are a much easier thing to love than women!). The second part, about drug abuse, was more relevant to my life (i am not having enough sex to be conditioned!). Studies showed that addicts because conditioned by environmental elements. For example, recovered heroin addicts taking it in darkened rooms with certain music tended to relapse when exposed to similar environments. One event (hearing music) was followed by a high often enough that the subject responds to the former even if the later is not forthcoming. Now how does that apply to me? Weeks after my birth my parents left me in a pub, in my carrycot, whish on a camping trip in Scotland. I was recovered but i was exposed to pubs as fun places from that day until the present time. I can’t actually recall a single bad memory linked to a licensed hostelry. So i am going to choose to believe that i am an alcoholic because pubs are fun...not because alcohol is. In the same studies addicts were shown to built up tolerance when exposed to the environment. The environmental conditions lead to the subject being “forewarned” of the drug event and their body reacting to counter the forthcoming narcotic (to some extent). So i was able to drink crates of Bud at the TUC because my body was already gearing up to be poisoned the moment i started walking down there...every week...for five years! And that is why i get drunk on so much less here in London. Now i have to keep myself from becoming conditioned! Current Mood: accomplished (4 Comments |Comment on this)
10:25 pm	Darn it all to heck... I will not be upholding the honour of the Black Legion at SVA this year...why you may/may not ask? Because i am going to Florida between the 6th and 16th of April. I am filming for my new dvd series..."Girls with low self esteem". WOOHOO! Spring Break! Current Mood: excited (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, February 10th, 2006
11:55 am	I am not pretty enough. So we went to GAY but they wouldn't let us in. I guess i was not "dressed to impress". But we didn't let that put us off. We went round the corner to my first gay-indie club...it turns out lesbians can have good musical taste! It seemed strange to be dancing to "Boys will be boys" with boys who do boys. They didn't play "It's raining men" once...although they saved face by playing one of the more guitar based Kylie tracks. Many people talked to me because of the shirt. It is a great alternative to having a personality! Current Mood: mischievous (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 1st, 2006
9:58 pm	Stealing an education... Tomorrow i am re-starting my life as a student. I am returning to the world of academia to study Psychology. If you want me i will be in the library (or the pub). I rule! Soon i will have as many degrees as my brother! Current Mood: excited (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, January 26th, 2006
12:09 am	The Black Zodiac The Great Child and the Dire Mother What sign of the Black Zodiac are you? brought to you by Quizilla Current Mood: cranky (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 17th, 2006
6:40 am	My head hurts...again. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 10th, 2006
4:31 pm	Inky damnation Leviticus 19:28 (2 Comments |Comment on this)
4:30 pm	Bloody Women! Leviticus 15:19 (Comment on this)
Monday, January 9th, 2006
1:34 am	Lazy advertising slags! Whilst I am not the first to point out that the advertising industry are a bunch of lazy, useless wankers (Lee and Herring, 1998?) I have been moved to the point of composing a ranting blog (Blackwell, 2006). Rant the first… Using Kurt Cobain to advertise shite pc packages. Why the hell would you use a photo of a man who blew his face off and spent a large portion of his life self-medicating with class a drugs to show off how “great” your deals were? Wankers. Rant the second… I graduated in 1999. In that same summer there was a song that hit number one which endorsed the use of sunscreen. Now some so called creative has lifted the concept to advertise a low fat spread. Well done wanker. Rant the third… Finally Virgin are telling you to say yes in the latest promotion for their credit card. The advert points out what great things can happen as a result of saying yes. Now this obviously superb concept could not have come out of the cocaine fuelled cerebellum of those “creatives”…and indeed it didn’t! Danny Wallace, in his fantastic book, Yes Man put forward the same cracking idea. Now you might think that stealing the concepts of little known artists, whilst contemptible, was something that the lazy advertising slags could get away with but can I suggest that stealing the concept behind a best selling book might be really shit. Better luck next time wankers. *sigh* Well that feels a little better. Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: Watching a film... Dear Wendy (Comment on this)
Sunday, December 25th, 2005
12:24 am	Seasons Greetings Happy Winterville All! Love and hugs and kisses XOXOX Current Mood: good (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, December 24th, 2005
12:44 pm	Is anyone suprised? You were destined to have a Red Lightsaber. Red is the color of fire and blood, so it is associated with energy, war, danger, strength, power, and determination as well as passion and desire. You have seen the Strength and Power of the Dark Side of the Force and have you thirst for more of it. What Colored Lightsaber Would You Have? brought to you by Quizilla Seasons Greetings everyone. Much love and hugs and kisses xoxox Current Mood: chipper Current Music: A bit of Saturday Night Fry (Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 20th, 2005
11:40 am	Old political satire... This is REALLY old but I just found it in my archive and it made me giggle... BEIJING - Bitter after being snubbed for membership in the "Axis of Evil," Libya, China and Syria today announced they had formed the Axis of Just as Evil," which they said would be way eviller than that stupid Iran-Iraq-North Korea axis President George W. Bush warned of in his State of the Union address. Axis of Evil members, however, immediately dismissed the new axis as having, for starters, a really dumb name. "Right. They are Just as Evil ... in their dreams!" declared North Korean leader Kim Jong-Il. "Everybody knows we're the best evils ... best at being evil ... we're the best." Diplomats from Syria denied they were jealous over being excluded, although they conceded they did ask if they could join the Axis of Evil. "They told us it was full," said Bashar al-Assad, Syria's President. "An Axis can't have more than three countries," explained Saddam Hussein, the Iraqi President. "This is not my rule, it's tradition. In World War II you had Germany, Italy, and Japan in the evil Axis. So you can only have three. And a secret handshake. Ours is wicked cool." International reaction to Bush's Axis of Evil declaration was swift, as within minutes, France surrendered. Elsewhere, peer-conscious nations rushed to gain triumvirate status in what became a game of geopolitical chairs. Cuba, Sudan, and Serbia said they had formed the Axis of Somewhat Evil, forcing Somalia to join with Uganda and Myanmar in the Axis of Occasionally Evil, while Bulgaria, Indonesia and Russia established the Axis of Not So Much Evil Really As Just Generally Disagreeable. With the criteria suddenly expanded and all the desirable clubs filling up, Sierra Leone, El Salvador and Rwanda applied to be called the Axis of Countries That Aren't the Worst But Certainly Won't Be Asked to Host the Olympics; Canada, Mexico and Australia formed the Axis of Nations That Are Actually Quite Nice But Secretly Have Nasty Thoughts About America, while Spain, Scotland and New Zealand established the Axis of Countries That Be Allowed to Ask Sheep to Wear Lipstick. "That's not a threat, really, just something we like to do," said Jack McConnell, Scottish Executive First Minister. While wondering if the other nations of the world weren't perhaps making fun of him, a cautious Mr. Bush granted approval for most axes, although he rejected the establishment of the Axis of Countries Whose Names End in "Guay," accusing one of its members of filing a false application. Officials from Paraguay, Uruguay, and Chadguay denied the charges. Israel, meanwhile, insisted it didn't want to join any axis, but privately, world leaders said that's only because no one asked it. Current Mood: Hungover (Comment on this)
11:02 am	Choose... Choose Marines. Choose a chapter. Choose a company. Choose a unit. Choose a fucking big gun. Choose Rhino58, Power Armour, Frag Grenades and a Monomolecular Combat Knife. Choose a secondary heart, larraman's organ, and a catalepsean node. Choose reliable air support. Choose a machine spirit. Choose your comrades. Choose heraldry and matching uniforms. Choose bikes and vehicles with enormous fucking weaponry. Choose following the Emperor and wondering where the fuck you are on a Sunday morning. Choose sitting in that assembly hall watching mind-numbing, spirit-crushing orientation holo-shows, drooling over Gulliman in your sleep. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, breathing your last in a miserable field, nothing more than an embarrassment to the Emperor, who you failed at the last, when it mattered the most. Choose your future. Choose Marines. Current Mood: complacent (5 Comments |Comment on this)
3:51 am	*sigh* You are pretty much the coolest animal, a Liger. Which Napoleon Dynamite character are you? brought to you by Quizilla (Comment on this)
2:56 am	Me... Peace is a lie, there is only passion. Through passion, I gain strength. Through strength, I gain power. Through power, I gain victory. Through victory, my chains are broken. For too long I lay dormant, unable to smile, but now I think I might be finding myself. The fog of intoxication is lifting. My heart beats so fast all I can hear is me. Current Mood: Passionate Current Music: My Pulse (Comment on this)
Monday, December 12th, 2005
2:24 pm	Me, today. http://www.ctrlaltdel-online.com/comic.php?d=20030314 Current Mood: Poisioned Current Music: The voices in my head tell me i'm fine. (2 Comments |Comment on this)